I have so much to tell and I will tell it, but in another post. As many of you know, I have become very good friends with some women through Fertility Friend.com - they have a sister site for those who have become pregnant. There I actively write on a "Due In July" board. It has been so nice to have other women to talk to who are going through the exact same things that I am - and often at the exact same time! I hadn't been able to check the boards since yesterday until right now, and I am still crying. :( One of my good friends on there lost her baby - at 25 weeks. I may have never met this woman in real life before, but we had conversed on many occasions and my heart is just breaking right now for her. The thought of losing my precious baby boy right now is almost too much to bear. He and I have a bond - I feel like there are secret moments during the day when he's talking to me and connecting with me and nobody else knows it but me. It's our little secret. And to have that suddenly be gone with no real explanation - it's just so terrible. (He's kicking me right now as to say "Everything's okay!" but that trust is so broken now...I don't know that everything will be okay.) I trust God's plan for our lives and the lives of His children. But the heartbreak of it all is overwhelming.
Friday
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Very difficult news to hear about your cyberfriend. So far the plan for you is very different. Look to the One who is the reason for all you do and even while your heart goes out to your friend, do not let yourself get sidetracked. You can reassure your little boy that you are okay and so is he. Love you D&D
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