Saturday

See you...

in a few days!? Weeks?! Not sure...but the computer is being packed up tonight so I am signing off! We leave for North Dakota Monday morning and the pressure is on...let me tell you. But it is slowly getting better and better and more packed and ready!

Oliver is doing wondeful. He had his 2 weeks appointment on Friday and passed with flying colors! He also gained another 5 ounces! We're still not up to the birth weight, but well on our way.

Take care everybody! Hope to see you soon!!

TTFN! :)

Thursday

Okay!

Here are some more picutres. :) I have to take some more!! Enjoy...



Wednesday

So much...

has happened since I last posted. What I thought was glorious sleep (it did feel good!) was actually a sign of a growing problem. Oliver should not have been sleeping that long at only a few days old. And since Friday, slowly, things have gotten worse and worse. His fussing was getting worse and worse, and feedings have slowly gotten longer and longer, with him still wanting more. He wasn't having enough wet diapers and he still was only pooping once a day. We had a weight check and my fears were confirmed - he was losing weight, not gaining. This is typical of newborns, especially breastfed ones, but by 10 days old they should at least have gained something. Oliver kept going lower and lower. We got pretty scared and started supplementing with formula on Monday, with another weight check on Tuesday. We thought for sure he would gain weight with the formula. He didn't. That's when we started getting really scared. The pediatrician said if he weighed even .1 of an ounce less we were going to have to admit him to the hospital to figure out what's going on. At that point I realized that the breast reduction surgery I had done 5 years ago was playing more of a part in this than I realized. Unfortunately breastfeeding help is hard to come by around here, but I did find support in Eagle River, a town nearby. After talking with that La Leche group leader it was decided that even though I have sensation, there were probably too many nerves damaged by the surgery so that my brain was not getting the message to make more milk, and slowly over several days my supply dwindled to an amount no longer healthy for Ollie. I have *some* milk, but no where near enough. So then came the really hard decision - to give breastfeeding up. I'm fine with it now, but yesterday was pretty tough. This was not how I imagined it would be! But Ollie really started showing scary signs - he was no longer moving very much, he just sort of stared up at us into space. He didn't even cry at diaper changes. I was so scared for his safety.

So yesterday we switched to formula exclusively. We had another weigh-in today, (we've been there everyday...oh that gets old), and were dreading the scale. I just didn't want to know. But we were so overjoyed to learn that Ollie not only gained weight - he gained 8 ounces in 24 hours!! The pediatrician was so surprised. We were hoping for half an ounce or a full ounce - but not half a pound!! Needless to say I couldn't have been happier. I have my little baby back who is active, crying, and thriving!!!

So now we pack! We move on Monday and it's coming fast and furious. We will be in Park River until next Sunday, and then we will be in Mayville after a lake vacation with my family.

Hope you're all doing well! TTFN. :)

Friday

Sleep! Glorious sleep! *LONG post*

Wow - he's a week old! We can hardly believe it. We are adjusting to our new little guy and trying to learn him and his quirks as fast as we can. He is adjusting to life outside the womb and we *hope* we made a turn for the better last night. Wednesday and Thursday were two of the hardest days I have ever had since being married to Jeremy! Ollie was fussing every hour, on the hour, and nothing we were doing was helping. He would fall asleep and then we'd lay him down and he'd be up 10 minutes later. This repeated itself all night on Wednesday. He ate every hour on the hour from 9 p.m. to 5 a.m. I have never felt exhaustion like this before in my life! After calling about three different friends and my sister, we started to make some changes late yesterday afternoon. He is being kept up after feedings (he likes to fall asleep on me) so he can start learning what is 'awake time' and what is 'asleep time.' He also finally passed his first breastfed poop - it had been over 36 hours since he had had a bowel movement. So now we get to last night and I'm dreading the worst. At this point I have had a total of 2 hours sleep in 2 days and here we go again with the night. Boy did he surprise us! He fed at 11:15, slept until 3:30 and fed then, and then slept again until 7:45 and fed then. And he then had his 'awake time' this morning - we sang Father Abraham and had some tummy time and now he's sleeping again! It's 10 a.m.! So we finally may have a system going here. And I cannot tell you how great sleeping for 3 solid hours was. SO GOOD.

Below is the birth story. It's long so skim over it if you want to or just ignore it all together! The online board I post on has a spot for birth stories so I just copied and pasted from there.

Went in Friday morning to be induced with Cytotec at 6 a.m. I was given the first 1/4 pill vaginally at 6:50 a.m. Contractions started right away, but were definitely manageable, but were different from the ones I was always having at home. Got another pill at 9:30 a.m. and contractions became stronger. I started using the lamaze breathing and was making it through them okay. 11:30 came the third and final dose. The contractions were pretty strong at this point but still quite manageable. Took a shower with Jeremy at this point, which helped so much! I loved the warm water - that really felt great and made the contractions easier to get through. After the shower (1:30) I laid down in bed for the doctor to check me. I was 3 cm and 100% effaced so he broke my water. I didn't feel that at all but wow did the contractions start coming then. We did different positions, sat on the birthing ball for a long time, tried everything. I wanted to try to get on all fours on the bed and try that, but in the process of doing that I got hit with the worst contraction yet and this sudden urge to push. And I HAD to push. Then came the sudden urge to vomit - and I did...more than once? I don't remember. Both of these were signs we were nearing the end...transition phase. The nurse freaked out, told me to lie down so she could check me. She said she thought I was complete and started running around the room to get it set up. She checks me one more time before getting the doctor only to realize that my cervix is paper thin, and she missed the lip between my cervix and Oliver's head. (He was right there). I was actually only 5 cm but baby was at +1, making me feel as though I had to push. OH MY. I had to push NOW. Well you can't she said. I breathed through those contractions for about an hour and a half. I started to hyperventilate and my legs and arms went completely numb. I begged the nurse to check me because I HAD to push. The doctor came to check and I was STILL 5 cm. I was stalling at 5 cm! So I asked for Nubane. She gave it right away and it took the edge off, but the urge to push never stopped. (It also made me dream of men's suit coats inbetween contractions - very weird stuff.) I made it through another hour of not pushing, and asked to be checked again because at this point I was pushing involuntarily. STILL 5 cm. I broke down and said I CAN'T DO THIS!! After 9 hours of trying to go natural, I got the epidural. HEAVEN. That's all I will say about that. About an hour and a half later, I started feeling a contraction in my bottom, so she checked and I was complete! FINALLY! (I am beyond exhaustion at this point because I couldn't sleep the night before - got 2 hours total). So I started pushing at 6:30 - couldn't feel a thing and resulted, in my opinion, in an hour of ineffective pushing that resulted in only mere exhaustion. The epi has its advantages and this was not one of them. Epi was turned off at 7:15 and made for another hour of decent pushing. By 8:30 the epi has worn off completely and I am feeling everything, pushing effectively, but beyond exhaustion and no longer talking, eyes rolling in the back of my head, oxygen on, and baby's heart decelerating with every contraction (towards the end sometimes down into the 20s or lower ... not good.) The doctor finally made the decision to do an episiotomy and vacuum assistance. I said "YES! PLEASE!!" Two more pushes and he was out at 9:27 p.m. after 3 hours of pushing. I have never had such relief in my life! My body was shaking so bad and I literally couldn't see straight! He was blue, had the cord around his neck, but pinked up nicely and quick. His apgars were 8 and 9. It took about an hour to stitch me up with the episiotomy and 2nd degree tear. I finally got to hold Oliver about an hour after he was born and he began nursing soon after that. He came out rooting and has been a sucking machine ever since!

I'm feeling really good now a week later. There's still some minor pain, but nothing a little Advil doesn't take care of.

Thanks for all the emails and phone calls. Jeremy and I are so excited and can't wait for you all to meet Ollie in person!!

Have a great weekend. TTFN. :)

Wednesday

5 days old!

We're home!! We've actually been home since Sunday afternoon but as you can imagine there has been little time to write and update you all. We're still quite exhausted :) , but overall doing very well. Ollie still has his days and nights mixed up, and getting that changed is a challenge in and of itself. Nursing is going well, but coming with the typical newborn problems - keeping him awake mostly!! When I have a little more time I will post the birth story but for now I wanted to share some pictures. TTFN! :)






Saturday

He's here...

Oliver (Ollie) Bjorn Marquardt was born yesterday at 9:27 PM. He is 7 lbs 8 oz. and 19.5 inches long. Jess had a tough labor, but I will have her write about that later. I will try to put some pictures on here too!


Baby Marquardt Posted by Picasa



Jess and Ollie Posted by Picasa


Oliver Bjorn Marquardt Posted by Picasa

Thursday

Oh goodness.

Okay - my last update before being a new mommy! I have to say my mind is going about 90 mph right now and my stomach is in knots. It's the fear of being induced, the fear of being a mom, the fear of everything changing! But also excitement - excitement of feeling something everybody tells me I can't even imagine.

There will be little sleep tonight. :) Please say a quick prayer for me and the labor, but mostly for the baby. God is in control of all, and I trust that. We will soon meet our little one. :)

TTFN!! :)

Tuesday

Update!

Okay - so we had our doctor's appointment today at 3:10. They were running really behind, so we didn't actually get out of there until almost 5. We also had an unscheduled non-stress test done to make sure baby was still doing okay. (Everything looked great!) My appointment went well. My cervix is definitely making changes, much lower, softer, and thinner, but still not dilating more than a centimeter. That's when he started talked induction. So we're scheduled to be induced on Friday morning at 6 a.m. It's not my ideal situation, but I feel it's the best. If you look at the statistics, the number of stillborn deaths (something nobody likes to think about) jumps by more than double at 42 weeks, and then double again at 43 weeks. I will be being induced at 41 weeks 1 day. So I'm comfortable with it, though I know for many it can be a very personal and controversial decision. The other "controversy" is always what to get induced with. Pitocin is the drug most people know about, but another widely used drug is Cytotec. This drug is not approved by the FDA for induction, and comes with warnings regarding its off-label use. This is the drug my doctor uses and after doing LOTS of research, I am comfortable with it. Again, to those reading this who are familiar you know the heated debates surrounding the use of this drug. It's again one of those things that I just feel is personal and I'm comfortable with it.

So that's the story! I am finding myself in a mix of emotions - from wanting to cry that this is almost over to being terrified. I still very well may go into labor by myself before Friday and that would be great too! It is just emotionally refreshing to have an end in sight. :)

Thanks for all the support and concern - I truly appreciate it.

TTFN! :)

p.s. I took a "last" belly picture to post, but really the stretch marks have gotten out of control and I couldn't post it! It's pretty bad...you really don't want to see it. :)

Almost 41 weeks...

I will be 41 weeks on Thursday! Oh goodness... never thought I'd make it this far. I have my normal doctor's appointment today so I will update as soon as I get back. It's not until after 3 p.m.

I think I have the flu or something like it. I'm not feeling well at all. And I don't think this is a "sign" either. I'm really just sick. And it stinks.

Monday

Waiting

Dear baby, here beneath my heart;
I thought that you might come today;
The timing seemed just right.
But the stars are out
And the moon is high
And sheepishly I wonder why
I try to arrange the plans of God.
For now I know
You will not come until the One
Who holds eternity rustles your soft cocoon
and whispers in tones I will not hear;
"It's time, precious gift.
Now it's time."

Robin Jones Gunn
Mothering by Heart

Sunday

Still waiting...

We are still here! Still waiting! I just want to say thanks for all the phone calls and emails - and I'm sorry if I haven't responded back to you. I am finding myself withdrawing from people in general and I don't mean to be rude, but I don't really want to talk to anybody either!! :) Sorry to be so honest, it's just how I'm feeling right now.

I'm coming down with a cold on top of everything else and my head is just pounding right now. I took a 3 hour nap today and felt much better afterwards, but it is coming back now. The waiting game has gotten quite old quite fast, and I'm finding that the induction I was willing to do anything to avoid earlier is become more of an option everyday. I'm trying SO HARD to stop the pity party for myself, because I know that's what I'm on. But they aren't kidding that they say when you reach 9 months, YOU ARE READY.

Hope you're all having a wonderful July 4th!! Hopefully we'll have more news for you tomorrow, but as of right now nothing to report!

TTFN! :)

Saturday

Yup...

Still here.

:)

Friday

I'm officially overdue.

We have to find something positive in all of this - don't we? Yes, we do. The one comforting fact about still being pregnant right now is that this whole time of being pregnant, I've grown to really like and get comfortable with my doctor. He's a band geek like us :), and he's very experienced. He's got a dry sense of humor and he listens to me. If I would've gone into labor anytime this week during the night, he would not have delivered because he was not on call. He let me know at my appointment on Tuesday that he is on call from Friday morning-Monday afternoon. So if I go into labor anytime between now and through Monday around 4 - he will be the delivering doctor! I am excited about that and that has been my wish all along. Now if I don't go into labor by Monday at 4 and I have my appointment on Tuesday - I may not be a happy girl at all.

To all my Park River friends - I so wish I could be there with you this weekend but I've got lots of other stuff going on! Have fun tonight and take it easy - have a great 4th of July!

TTFN. :)