I know...I know...

I haven't posted in ages!! I know! So much has happened I don't even know where to start, but I'm sure once I start typing it will just flow - it always does and then I end up writing more than I ever meant to.

ANYWAYS...I quit work. :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) Can you tell I'm happy??! I don't know why I ever thought working at the nursing home was going to work out, but after a week and a half it was clear it was not going to. Getting up at 5 am or getting home at midnight was simply not working out - Ollie was not adjusting well to the constantly changing schedule (I suppose it would be different if I worked the same shift all the time, but I wasn't) and poor Jeremy was so tired and feeling like a single parent when I worked the evening shifts. He would wake up, go to work, get home and take care of Oliver all by himself until I got home at midnight. It just wasn't working. So I called the supervisor simply just to voice my concerns and see if we could get my hours down a little bit until we adjusted better as a family. Oh goodness - she thought that was 'unrealistic' of me (her exact words) to think I could do this parttime. I continued to tell her I was overwhelmed, etc., need help, and there was no sympathy there. So I said maybe this isn't going to work. Again nothing. ??? (Thinking back now, it took her three days to even say hello to me my first week there, and this is my boss? I am a new employee and never once did she ask if I had any questions, is everything going okay, didn't even acknowledge my presence). Okay, then. So I'm quitting. I will come in for 2 weeks if you want me to. No, she says, I'm taking you off the schedule. AND THEN SHE HUNG UP ON ME!!! HELLO? Maturity - have any?! Now that it's all over, I realize that I really did not want to work for this woman anyways. UGH!

Okay, fast forward to today. I just accepted a position with GST here in Portland. They are basically the Special Ed department for several counties. I will be working with special needs children, some high functioning, others with quite severe disabilities. It will be three days a week, Tuesday-Thursday. It is school hours and only during the school year. It will be nice to be on the same schedule as Jeremy. I have no idea if this will be long term or not - I'm just going with the flow right now!

To update you on Ollie - he did sleep through the night that one night, and a couple others, but not consistently. But he has slept through the night for three straight nights now!! Very exciting...he's also holding his head up much better and has started bringing his feet up all the way in the air and tries to get them up to his head. He coos a lot now and is growing so fast! It was so sad to have to pack away some of his clothes already - I seriously wanted to cry.

Here are some pictures to end with. Hope you all are off to a wonderful start of fall. Take care!

TTFN :)

What?? Did that seriously just happen??!

I will write about work...but first...

OLIVER SLEPT THROUGH THE NIGHT LAST NIGHT!

Can you believe it??!? We can't!! We laid him down to sleep around 8:15 p.m. and he woke up at 5:40 a.m.!!! Oh happy day! We've been doing the sleep training thing where we console him if he fusses, but we try not to pick him up unless he cries. (We don't let him cry it out - not this young.) Anyways, I heard him wake up a couple of times last night, but he put himself right back to sleep!! I, unfortunately, was up from 1 a.m. on but that's because I was so worried/nervous/anxious about today.

And it wasn't that bad. But it wasn't that great either. It was work - it's a job. I love the residents and being able to care for them, but the main reason I'm there is because I need a paycheck and health insurance. I would much rather be with my baby. That being said, he had a great day at daycare, according to the daycare lady. He only had one fussy period in the morning (of course right when I call so I can hear him crying on the phone - absolutely broke my heart) and then otherwise had a great day. Even smiled and talked for her. Of course I'm happy he seems to be happy - but I want those smiles and coos for myself!!!

He's been in bed now for 45 minutes - let's pray tonight goes as well as last night! It's okay if it doesn't though. It's just like the first smile - that one smile held me over for days. This one night of sleep will be just the same.

TTFN!

p.s. TAMI EMAIL ME!! I wrote to you but it got returned to me!!

So sad/excited/nervous...

I start work tomorrow! So many mixed emotions with this one - I am excited to be doing work again, never thought I'd say that, but I'd honestly rather be with Oliver. I am NOT excited at the thought of leaving him. Not one bit. I could and will cry about it tomorrow...I just know it. I know, though, that once the schedule works itself out, it will be a good job to be in. It is only part-time, though the month of September is orientation so it's full-time. After that it will be an average of 24 hours per week, but with a 24-hour weekend (2 12-hour shifts) every third weekend. Make sense? So with that added in, I only need to do 2 days a week. One will be a day shift, (6:30-3) and one an evening shift (2:15-11:45). So in reality, between Jeremy and I Oliver will only be in day care one full 8 hour day and then another day for only roughly 3 hours. Not too bad. I've just really gotten used to being here with him day in and day out. And it's not so much that I'm worried about Oliver and day care, but I'm worried that *she* won't know what to do - she doesn't know what he likes or how to make him stop crying. Oh...I hate that thought. Him just screaming his little head off and her snapping and doing something horrible.

Ugh.

I gotta go to bed...I will write when I got home from work tomorrow and will also post some pictures from our trip to Minot! Oliver did great - even gave us our first 6 1/2 hour stretch of sleep! Yeah!!

TTFN. :)