01.28.09

Happy Wednesday!

Just as I typed the title for this post, "01.28.09" it became aware to me that today is the one year anniversary of us finding out we lost our pregnancy, our baby, last year. One whole year has gone by. I have to say sometimes it felt like time would never pass, and sometimes it felt like it had gone by way too fast! A lot of growth in a year, and a lot of changes! I am surprised that I didn't even realize this day had come. My day went by, as it always does, and never once did I think about it. Until right now - and I think that's okay. I'll never forget the hope I held for that baby, but I can't wait for this baby either!

So today I am about 19 weeks 3 days, give or take a few days (weeks?). The month that we conceived this baby was messed up, and dates are off somewhere. Basically ~ long story in a nutshell ~ (and also TMI for any males reading out there!) ~ I could tell I had not been ovulating for about 2 months. I'll spare the details - but I knew. I had a blood test to confirm it, and yep, no ovulation had occurred. So basically the game then is to wait for your period, or cycle day 35, whichever comes first. If you get to day 35, we'll give you a medicine to bring on your period. BUT...you have to take a pregnancy test first, to confirm. Day 35 came for me, and so I took a pregnancy test so I could get my prescription. It was 6:30 in the morning. And I SCREAMED out loud after I saw the test results. Jeremy comes running in and I handed him the test and told him to tell me what he saw. He said, without hesitating, "I see two lines. What does that mean??" We were pregnant!

We just took a jab at possible dates and then went from there. My official ultrasound is Friday! I can't believe it's already this Friday. So we will have a "for sure" due date then, and I will be sure to pass that info on. Right now the due date is June 21, and if the ultrasound dates differ by 10-14 days, then we will change it to the ultrasound dates. If it is less than that, then June 21 it is. And, as for the question of the year...No, I don't know if we are finding out the sex yet, and no, I don't know if we're telling anybody!! :) We are most likely doing the "put it in an envelope for later" thing until we can make up our minds.

I feel like I have so much to say. I can't type fast enough.

This pregnancy has been so different from Oliver's. The first was -wow- hello belly! That thing grew with force and fervor like never before. haha I could not believe how quickly I started showing! Also, with Oliver I was so over-involved, and I don't know if that's a good or bad thing, I just realize now it is a typical thing for a first time mom. With this pregnancy, cramps come and go, pains come and go, movements come and go, and life goes on!! Dishes need to be done, laundry needs to get folded, and I find myself losing these weeks so quickly. I don't think I need to document quite everything I did last time, but something would be good!! The morning sickness with this child was brutal. And just like with Ollie, it wasn't really in the morning, but rather from 6 pm and on. I was totally useless for about 12 weeks. And it wasn't heartburn, or back pain like last time, just extreme fatigue and nausea. Then, like a light switch at around 13 weeks, it was done! I noticed one day I felt better, and the good days just never stopped coming. Since then I've been doing very well! So well that I get scared sometimes ~ should it be like this? Is it just because I'm so busy that I don't have time to think about all the symptoms? I am tired - but I have a very energetic 3-year old to chase after! That's just par for the course. But really I can't complain, this pregnancy has been easy. And baby's movements are much different than last time too. Softer - quieter - less often, but still there everyday. Oliver was always trying to break out of my tummy. :)

Speaking of Oliver, he is unfortunately sick tonight, so most of this afternoon was spent cuddling. And when Oliver wants to cuddle, I drop EVERYTHING and I cuddle!! The cuddle times are much too few and far between now to pass up any opportunity. But I do fear a long night ahead of us....

Okay, I've written a book and will be done. I never think I have anything to say until I start typing, and then it just kinda spews out of me. Thanks for caring and taking the time to read this far.

And lastly I leave you with three pictures; one is the first belly picture for this pregnancy! Excuse the camera, it's got issues, and apparently thought the candle behind me was the focus. And the second is of my big man playing his trombone. (Matt Franko would be proud!) He loves music, and there is a trombone solo line in "The Bear Necessities" from The Jungle Book that he has to play everytime. Melts my heart!... The third is of Mr. Cuteness himself, my new nephew, Parker Robert Spoonland. He was born last Wednesday, 1/21, and is the darn near cutest thing I have ever seen. We love him up quite a bit!